If you are not meant to take Ativan long term how does it work best the longer you take it?

I was on ativan from my provider two years ago. My Ativan got stolen and my provider would not believe me and shut me off abruptly from Ativan. 4 days later I had a seizure and ended up with disassociative amnesia. I also ended up in the hospital for 36 Days because I was found roaming around with this Amnesia and I was missing for 12 hours because the hospital let me go before calling my emergency ride. Actually they called my emergency contact Ride 3 minutes after they released me and told that person that I was still there and that he could come see me when notified. I Ended up back at the hospital with blisters all over my feet. I had no phone no shoes and my money was missing from my wallet when I was found knocking on a purple door. I was told detectives were questioning me but I do not remember anything at all. And that Amnesia is still sticking with Me 2 years later. All Ativan really is is a peculiar Act in the psychiatric circus And I feel like a clown in this psychiatric circus all the time. It is illegal for providers to just cut you off suddenly and let this happen to someone as it happened to me. Because of that provider's negligence it started me on a spiral going in and out of hospitals for the past two years at least 10 times. All pharmaceutical medication is a big joke. It is just a money-making scam that damages our bodies and our brains. All those people are as bad as a heroin drug dealer. PATHETIC! I do not recommend Holyoke Hospital in Holyoke Massachusetts to anyone.